I walked out of the room Wednesday night with a sigh of relief and a bittersweet feeling in my heart. I completed my final oral exam for Women’s Development, which meant the release of anxiety that comes with any testing situation but also the end of a life-giving and life-changing season. This year I feel like I have experienced what it means to live life closely to the way God designed it. I am a naturally independent, stubborn, introverted and untrusting person. Through WDP, God has blessed me with the opportunity to deny all of those parts of me and live, serve, learn and love alongside my community. It has been hard living this way: having constant accountability for my sin, processing through what God is trying to teach me week after week, learning to give up my time and energy to counsel and serve others, trusting God’s Spirit in others. But despite all of the uncomfortableness and difficulty, this season has been for my good. I’ve come to know God in ways I never could have imagined, and I am so grateful for that.
I know God is calling me to lead in some capacity during this next season of my life. I feel such an unnatural desire to lay down my dreams (and I have many…) for his glory and to bring others to know of his love. Not that he wouldn’t use my dreams to do that, but just that I find myself more willing to sacrifice things that are for my selfish glorification for his kingdom. I definitely don’t feel equipped most days to do this. I feel tired and weak and ready to run from his calling every day, but by the miracle of the Spirit, I have the strength to keep going. I want to see this city and the world changed by the gospel, and I want God to use me to do it.
What’s up next for me is to travel to Athens, Greece to share the gospel with women who have never heard. As a part of the Women’s Development program, we are required to take a mission trip this summer. My missional community and I were assigned to go to Athens for a little over a week. There we will talk with women about God and serve and love them as Jesus would. I am incredibly excited for what God will do, and I cannot wait to share the gospel with the women I have been living life with all year.
I am currently support raising for this trip, and I still need $2000 by May 5 in order to go. The dates of my trip are May 15-24. I know that this is so soon, but I am trusting that God will provide the finances for me to go. If you would like to contribute, please visit: https://secure.acceptiva.com/?cst=2f1935 or email me for more information at email@example.com.
In Philippians, Paul, speaking in regards to the generosity of the Philippian church, says,
“Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that increases to your credit. I have received full payment, and more. I am well supplied, having received from Epaphroditus the gifts you sent, a fragrant offering, a sacrifice acceptable and pleasing to God. And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”
I too trust that God will abundantly bless those who give to him, and I pray God will richly bless all of you who do so.